Our Story - written by God

Sometimes I get on here and I pour out the little thoughts in my head.  They are the thoughts most people would probably keep to themselves.  I obviously have many moments and thoughts that I do not share here, and sometimes I choose to share the not so "happy go lucky" ones.

The reason I share them is simple.  My story will always be about what God does in my life in-spite of me.  Alone I can't do this.  If I relied on my own strength and emotions I would have quit before I even started.  But I'm not alone.  Not only did God give me the best husband and son to go through this with me, and a family that has been really supportive, but He gave me Himself.  He gives me strength when I don't have it and a safe place to go when I want to cry so hard it hurts.

I am not looking forward to the day when this all comes to a head and the joy of having our first foster child is replaced by a mix of emotions that I don't know what to do with.  But I know, in-spite of myself, God will be working.  Doing what is best for all of us.  Even if it doesn't feel good in my flesh I will always know that God is at work.  Even when I feel awful inside.  He is going before me making my paths straight.  And I am so thankful for that.

This is His story, I handed it over to Him along time ago and so far every bit of it has been amazing.  He has poured down so many blessings on me that I can truly say "My cup runneth over".  I don't expect that to end.  No matter what happens I know that Joy will come in the morning.