"God gives us dreams a size too big so that we can grow into them."

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

"This is the day the Lord hath made, I will rejoice and be glad in it

I love all these pictures of Ben, he is so funny :)

This morning the verse I have as the title of my post came into my mind.  But it came in the form of the song we used to sing in Sunday School when I was little, you know the one:

"This is the day that the Lord hath made
I will rejoice and be glad in it.

This is the day
This is the day

That the Lord Hath Made"

I haven't thought of that verse or song in forever.  I didn't really pop into my head because I was having a bad day or anything-I just have been focusing on taking one day at a time and only taking on problems that concern that day.
If I have a bad day I often say to myself, "I will make it through this day."  But often that doesn't help that much.  The thing that helps me the most is to look at the GOOD of "that day"-because usually there is a whole lot more good to that day than bad.

When my sister got into her car accident there wasn't much good I could come up with "that day" but I was amazed how hearing that she was still breathing after the ambulance ride to the hospital brought me so much comfort.  Talk about the little things, I had never been so happy to hear someone was breathing since Kobe was born, I think I have to add Little David in there too because we had a terrible scare when he came out of Bobbie not breathing and they had to get him breathing.

No matter what little thing had bothered me those days just hearing, "she's still breathing", "he's breathing" made them such good days.  Such good days.

A lot of times the reason we have a bad day is directly related to something we are worried about will happen, but hasn't happened yet.  Pastor Jim's message on Sunday about hanging in there between Tragedy and Triumph was such a good thing for me to hear.  It is so true that if you will wait things out Triumph is always around the corner-even if you have to "get through today" to get to it.

I also have been trying to get all of this stuck in my own head and engraved on my heart because of Ben and I working to become foster parents.  A lot of people have said some very insensitive things to me about foster care, I am often surprised how people want to scare you out of what God wants you to do.  It's not easy to take on a task you know could break your heart along the way and trying to explain to people that you are preparing yourself as much as humanly possible seems to fall on deaf ears often.  I have to take on the attitude of I get today and that is it, to really be able to think about doing what we are going to do.  One day I might be someone's only mommy and the next day I might not.  How am I going to feel if I know a little one I love is going to have to go back to parents that have hurt them before the next day?

All I will be able to do it love those kids as much as I can while I have them, and pray God holds those kids close to His heart as He already has said He does.  So, that is how I plan to do it, take the days I get and "rejoice in the Lord and be glad" in them.


cindy said...

You bless me beyond words Leah. That is all we all get is "Today" seems that is what God has been telling me lately. Live each day fully you never know what is around the next bend. And to live each day with out regrets! I love you so much. Dad and I are blessed with our family and can't wait to walk that journey with you and Shelly.
God is amazingly wonderful and his grace is sufficient.
Love you,

gram said...

If God brings you to it, he will get you through it. God knows you guys will make awesome foster parents and hopefully adopt a little one. All one has to do is look at Kobe to know what great parents you are.
The pictures you posted of Ben are funny and he is such a great guy.

Vicki Aeschliman said...

Leah, it's not the people wanting to scare you away from being foster parents it's Satan. Think of how many lives you can touch for Christ.

Alyssa said...

I have tears in my eyes, Leah. You guys are going to be great foster parents. God will use all 3 of you greatly in the lives of many children.

Great pictures of "Uncle Jason" :) LOL

cindy said...

Vicki is right, it is a spiritual battle. Don't give up, just keep going forward. I can't wait to see our family christmas picture next year!!!
Love you,

the johnson crew said...

so beautifully written leah. what a good reminder to me to treasure every breath. i take so much for granted.

you are a blessing to me!

Shelly Marie said...

I love this quote and it is probably one of my favorites.

"Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!"

Leah Wentzel said...

lol, "uncle jason" :)