"God gives us dreams a size too big so that we can grow into them."

Monday, April 12, 2010

This weekend - where should I start?

Should I start with handing S off to her mom?

or handing K off to his adoptive family?

or Kobe telling me while the kids were gone "It's like I'm a normal kid"

or should I tell you about how God answered the whispers of my heart by handing my husband 2 opening day tickets to the Tigers so that Kobe could have a day all about him?

should I talk about K coming home and being in love with his potential new mom?

or about S coming home with cupcakes covered in dog hair?

or the size 24 months clothes she was dressed in?

Should I go on and on about how hard it is having kids all going in different directions and getting them back tired and crabby Every. Single. Time.

Things foster care wise around here are getting kinda rough.

Things family wise around here are going great.

It is like there is always a little bit of bad hovering over all of the GOOD.

And it all comes from one source.

I don't know what to do with that.


Rebekah said...

Our time with Rebekah last week gave me a small glimpse of what it's like to have your heart pulled in two different directions.

I don't envy you.

I know this must be tough.

Hang on.

Do you know the David Crowder song, Glorious?

My favorite line is "You make everything glorious."

Hang on to that.

StarfishMom said...

Oh Leah. I have SO BEEN where you're standing. My only advice is keep your eyes on HIM! Finish this journey then you and Ben should take a long, hard look and what to do next. God WILL give you the answers you need. Trust HIM. I'm thrilled that K is doing well with his transition! S...another story. Know that I'm praying...

gram said...

Oh Leah!! WOW

Vicki Aeschliman said...

I'm so sorry Leah! I am praying for you all. We love you guys.

Alyssa said...

still praying. that is where our strength and answers come from! I love that song your friend Rebekah was talking about too! Focus on truth!
Love you, Leah!