"God gives us dreams a size too big so that we can grow into them."

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Our Story - written by God

Sometimes I get on here and I pour out the little thoughts in my head.  They are the thoughts most people would probably keep to themselves.  I obviously have many moments and thoughts that I do not share here, and sometimes I choose to share the not so "happy go lucky" ones.

The reason I share them is simple.  My story will always be about what God does in my life in-spite of me.  Alone I can't do this.  If I relied on my own strength and emotions I would have quit before I even started.  But I'm not alone.  Not only did God give me the best husband and son to go through this with me, and a family that has been really supportive, but He gave me Himself.  He gives me strength when I don't have it and a safe place to go when I want to cry so hard it hurts.

I am not looking forward to the day when this all comes to a head and the joy of having our first foster child is replaced by a mix of emotions that I don't know what to do with.  But I know, in-spite of myself, God will be working.  Doing what is best for all of us.  Even if it doesn't feel good in my flesh I will always know that God is at work.  Even when I feel awful inside.  He is going before me making my paths straight.  And I am so thankful for that.

This is His story, I handed it over to Him along time ago and so far every bit of it has been amazing.  He has poured down so many blessings on me that I can truly say "My cup runneth over".  I don't expect that to end.  No matter what happens I know that Joy will come in the morning.


gram said...

I love you :)

Becca B. said...

Well said!

Always Faith said...


Rebekah said...

Sharing thoughts that others wouldn't share makes you REAL and relate-able. I strive for that in every post on my blog.

I admire your strength and completely understand your words.

Our time in Colorado was difficult on many levels...I was no where near prepared for what we were going to experience (In my head was more fantasy than reality). BUT GOD. He gave us everything we needed to survive.

Our path has not been easy....but now looking back, I feel so FULL. I know you'll look back and feel the same.

God bless you and Ben and Kobe. You are SO needed.

the johnson crew said...

Hebrews 11
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen... And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him..."

I love this whole passage... it talks about Abraham, Noah, even Rahab obeying God because they trusted Him... not knowing the outcome! This always encourages me... and it is not about us, it is all about God.

You are a blessing to read about Leah. I admire you so much. I seriously wish we could live near each other and be friends!

Blessings, Janelle