The reason I share them is simple. My story will always be about what God does in my life in-spite of me. Alone I can't do this. If I relied on my own strength and emotions I would have quit before I even started. But I'm not alone. Not only did God give me the best husband and son to go through this with me, and a family that has been really supportive, but He gave me Himself. He gives me strength when I don't have it and a safe place to go when I want to cry so hard it hurts.
I am not looking forward to the day when this all comes to a head and the joy of having our first foster child is replaced by a mix of emotions that I don't know what to do with. But I know, in-spite of myself, God will be working. Doing what is best for all of us. Even if it doesn't feel good in my flesh I will always know that God is at work. Even when I feel awful inside. He is going before me making my paths straight. And I am so thankful for that.
This is His story, I handed it over to Him along time ago and so far every bit of it has been amazing. He has poured down so many blessings on me that I can truly say "My cup runneth over". I don't expect that to end. No matter what happens I know that Joy will come in the morning.